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previously prettyboythief.
I don’t mean you have to change yourself! I like you the way you are…! Just know how I feel about it really.. I hate having to make you feel that way, along with everyone else..it’s just my happiness. Roleplay is my life and my way to escape to new worlds. To be someone I dreamed I could be. My way of pushing my problems to the side…or to not get bored and restless when I feel trapped. I just kind of had to tell you how I felt because if I didn’t and I lashed out at you…or got sad…how would you know how I felt with not only you but a lot of other people? It’s not just you thats doing this though but a lot of others too. I’m just trying to learn to ask for I need when I need it…cause i’m kinda horrible at that..but I just kinda started it with you! I couldn’t have picked a better person to share my feelings with apparently! Thank you for being always so understanding. It means the world to me. Truly it does. If anyones wonderful it’d be you.
I’m happy you’re able to be honest with me. I wouldn’t want you holding in any feelings which might cause you to be bitter with yourself or those around you. Though I’m pretty blunt and honest, when it comes to inner emotions, I kind of hold myself back – mainly because I feel as though nobody cares, I guess. I don’t know, I don’t like being a burden towards others, and yet when something makes me mad or annoyed, I’m able to express both of those emotions extremely well. I’m complicated, but I’m glad you seem to think I’m worth knowing.
Yeahhh I can understand that. I have ADD. I guess it’s just that since I like roleplays so much it holds number one on my list… and I can try and do oneliners but it almost ALWAYS turns out to be bigger…maybe at least a paragraph. Cause I also ramble. It’s just that I send starters all the time…but most of the time I go unanswered or they do get an answer but I never hear from them again..which was why earlier I kinda..poked you a bit and was like “hey did you get it?” cause I tend to feel ignored or unworthy as a roleplayer and sometimes even a person. Cause I never know if they GOT it or if i’m being ignored or just as you said setting it aside for later. So…if and when you do get the chance…would it be alright if I ask for a bit of prioritzing..? at least until I can work on my confidence a bit more? I sWEAR I have more than this its just that in between exams and finals..spirits are a bitttt down.
Aww babe, I really don’t mean to make you or anyone to feel like that. A couple of others have said something similar to me within the past few days and I can understand where you’re coming from. I don’t want to promise that I’ll be better ( because I can’t exactly change how I am in the blink of an eye ), but I will try to, as you say, prioritize you a little more. Just remember that I’m not ignoring you nor thinking you are any less ; you’re quite wonderful.
wellll I am trying..to be myself and be confident as I am with others! I just find myself a little starstruck is all! I really want to be able to demand more roleplay from you or more time talking with you but then I get the thought ” you don’t want to bug him” so I kinda curl up and hide…? Ittttt’ssss kinda hard to explain….
That really makes me happy, not gonna deny that fact. I’m more than happy to start short threads any time of the day ; but my longer threads usually sit in my drafts. Like for example, I can reply fast to these posts because it has my attention but once my ADHD kicks in, it’ll go out the window. I’ll come back to tumblr and not feel like doing anything. My brain works in weird ways, but main point is, I get distracted by everything. But yeah, if you throw a starter at me, I usually respond! It can be something simple like one liners since I can do those quickly.
